Hebrews 11

Read it. Every word. Every person who wants to truly make a dent in the world, please read it. And then understand that you will be called to live it. You will be called to live it to the end of your strength.

I understand now what it means to train in the dark. To have literally everything you hold dear, every assurance, every earthly thing to be stripped. There are slats, he said. And God is removing each one. I'm sorry it's so hard, he said.

Abraham impresses me the most. 11:11 says: "By faith Abraham, even though he was past age and Sarah herself was barren was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who had made the promise"

Your world will become a series of "even though?"

Sometimes you will cry and cry because THAT is the only release from the pain of not knowing, the pain of the possibility that you are absolutely insane. The pain of what if they're right?

And not just one or two people, all of them. All people.

You know why in 11:37 they went about in "sheepskins and goatskins?" because they probably felt psychotic. Because they knew something no one else did. Because sometimes it feels like you're in mourning when you are waiting. Or perhaps they were too busy praying to care about clothes. "The world was not worthy of them" 11:38

But faith is the better choice. It really is. Because that's the difference between zero and one, endangered and mundane, miracles and mediocrity.

Apparently according to 11:6, "Without faith it is impossible to please God."

And the funny thing is, this is only a morsel of the faith I will need for the future. A morsel.

Insane or a believer of miracles?

It's a fine line.

But I'd rather live on this line than settle for anything else.