Desiderio Domini

Sometimes You feel so far from me I can barely breathe.

Most times You are closer than my skin.

I feel Your presence like warm water across my back.

Like an arm wrapping me up.

Because I only actually have One desire:

To be with You.

I long for it every hour of every day.

And sometimes I block it out with other things. Mediocrity.

I block it out because sometimes that yearning is too hard to bear.

So I say I long for a husband or a clinic or a friend.

But no.

All of that is so secondary. So secondary.

All I really want is You.

To see Your face.

To no longer need faith.

I love You in a way that ends all logic, all rationale.

I love You in a way that I am not capable.

Because we love only because You loved us first.

I can't wait to see Your beautiful face.

To gaze upon Your countenance.

To hold Your hand and dance with You.

My Father, my Maker, my one true Inheritance.

Heal me Lord so I can only have this focus all the days of my life.

So I can be wholly loyal to You.

So I can walk in fidelity with You.

So my one aim alone is intimacy with You.