It shifted so easily it seems

She's the woman I never thought she could be. 

Grace overcame her. He finally won. She finally stopped running or maybe He finally caught up with her.

As I am being reborn so is she. Change always happened so drastically for us. We never knew when we might be calling the police again. We never knew what color bruises we would have the next day. We never knew how locked the doors needed to be.

But it shifted. We never knew that one day she would wake up and want a different life. Never knew that decorating my apartment would make her want her own. Never knew that me sitting alone in Redlands, crying over my broken wine glass, instead of running back home to security, would make her want her own life.

Change always happens so drastically for us.

So here I sit, totally stunned by the power of God. Totally stunned by the persistence of God to answer prayers I prayed at the age of 7. Totally amazed by a God who knows exactly the needs of His children and when to fulfill them. 

So I write this as a prayer of thanksgiving. It's been 29 years for her. 24 years for me. 29 years for him. 

Thank you that you are the ultimate Healer. Thank you that I can thank you now for blessings to come. Thank you for loving us so much that you never ever give up. Thank you that you know how much we can handle. Thank you for a love that surpasses all understanding. 

Thank you for change. For a break in the cycle. For revelation. For grace. For mercy. 

To you, my half,  I love you more than life itself. I give you over to Him. I submit your life and lovingly impart you over. You are no longer mine. You are no longer his. You belong to something so much bigger. A wider, deeper, revolution. I submit you and say I trust. Love and be loved. Let Him open up spaces within you and heal the brokenness. Let Him unleash the fire within you so that it may strengthen your bones and carry you on to sweet rest. Let Him love you the way your father loved you. Let Him see you the way your father saw you. Allow Him to re-grow the parts within you that have died. You are no longer defined by these 29 years. You are no longer defined by the abuse. You are the daughter of the Most High. The daughter of the living and true God. Give yourself over to healing and be born anew.

To you, my other half, I love you more than life itself. I give your life over to Him. I submit you and trust God for healing. For refuge. For revelation. For sustenance. For a deep, profound, break in the curves of your soul. You weren't born for this my love. You weren't meant for this. Your beauty is transcendent. Your life an array of colors mixing and separating. Your being unique in all its nature. Allow Him to release you unto mercy. You are forgiven. I forgive you. Forgive me. Love and be loved. Heal and be healed. See and be seen. Be born anew.

And I looked up and everything had shifted.