Faith

I was desperate today for some sort of answer, something to tell me that I'm not crazy. So I played that flippy game where you flip randomly through a book and hope you land on the page "you are supposed to read."

Yeah, I was that desperate.

The book I happened to flip through is called "How to be a Proverbs 31 woman"

And the chapter I flipped to was: "A Woman of Faith."

God likes to really be clear that this is currently the season I am in. Even in trivial flipping of pages, He will bring it back to His purposes.

Here's an excerpt, mainly because I ran out of pages in my journal so I have to document it somewhere:

"The spiritual woman sees herself as a stranger and a wanderer on the earth. She is looking for a better country, a heavenly one. She doesn't build a house, but lives in a tent, waiting for a home with a better foundation.

She may be mocked by words like: 'You're living in a a dream world.' (This could be from others or from her own mind!) That is why faith is having hope in things not seen. Without such faith, it is impossible to please God."

We have faith not in the assurance of circumstances or our expectations, but in God alone.

To aid us, God gives us His enduring word knowing that the word that goes out of His mouth will not return void, but will accomplish the purpose for which it was sent. (Isaiah 55)

Have you ever felt like you are outside yourself watching yourself?

Every day that is how I feel. Nothing is actually real to me any more. I literally only have God's word and what He's said.

Seriously be careful what you pray for because God will answer it in a way that ends all other assurances leaving you with one thing:

That the One who called you is faithful and He will do it. (1 Thessalonians 5: 24)