Relationship Status: Married

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_M33GcJAmU

everyone who has eyes to see and/or ears to hear must experience the link above.

i have watched it multiple and still i am brought to my knees in desperate tears.

i am so totally in love with God it's unbelievable. Today I saw a loving, happily married couple kiss each other at church and the only thought that crossed my mind was, "Yes that's beautiful, but my life with God is so much better."

I married God on Monday. In the car as I was driving I said to Him, "God I want to marry you and deepen my covenant with you." And He said, "I've always been married to you, I've always been tied to you. The ball was always in your court."

What an incredible lover I have. The kind that doesn't cheat, doesn't abuse, doesn't lie. The kind that admits His need, communicates the intensity of His love, the kind that always ultimately advocates for me. The kind that never leaves, that always forgives, that always challenges. The kind that only wants the choicest of things for me.

I would rather be in relationship with God than be a nurse, than be a humanitarian, than be a daughter, than be a best friend or a wife.

My husband is beautiful, perfect, a feminist, politically aware, strong, idealistic, humble and loving. I don't ever want anything to get in the way of my covenant, my commitment, this marriage.

That means everything comes under the radar. How I spend my time, what comes out of my mouth, what I eat, what I drink, what I think, how I drive, how I care for my patients, how I speak to my co-workers, how I judge people, how I don't judge people, how I vote, how I love my friends, how I don't love my friends, the papers I sign, how I spend my money...everything.

In a marriage, the two become one flesh. I am no longer my own. I give up my rights, my agenda, my will, my desires, my dreams, my aspirations, my fears, my plans, I give it all up for the lover of my soul, spirit, heart and mind.

It comes full circle from 2006 when I, a lost, but ultimately redeemed soul led a chant with friends saying, "I belong to God."

Now I finally do. Now I am 100% His and He is mine. We are one.

My new husband and I are registered at the prayer store, which resides in each of your hearts. Please feel free to bless our new marriage with as many prayers as you like. =)




p.s. Although this blog entry may seem strange to some, think of this: If every woman would allow herself to first be loved by God, her creator, and allow herself to live fully secure in that relationship, how much more fruitful and loving, would her marriage be to a flawed, but chosen earthly male?

Something to ponder...