you really did chase us

and thanks so much for catching up with us.

you ran, you ran so hard. you never stopped to take a breath. you never stopped to drink.

the faster we ran, the more side streets you took. the more alleys and short cuts, just to get to us.

and all along, all you wanted was to sit with us and stay a while. to look into our eyes and say, "daughter you are healed."

you chased through all the bullshit. the abuse, the pain, the drunken messes. you pursued us as we pushed you away, flipped you off, urinated on all your plans for us.

you never stopped to rest.

what joy you must have felt when we got tired. when you finally broke us down so we would stop and let you love us. but you weren't enough we said. so we kept running.

but we are done now.

im tired of running. im tired of being a slave to this world. im tired of doing it alone. so at 3am we prayed, not because of need but because of delight. not because of crises, but of gratitude. not because we doubt you, but because we love you.

and you wept. you wept out of sheer relief and joy. the race is finally over and you won. you wept as we submitted all of ourselves to you. you wept because that's all you ever wanted. through the slaps, the bruises, the drama, the mistakes, all you ever wanted was to be our home.

thank you.

i will love You eternally.

so im going to greece alone

it's pathetic that it was so hard for me to make this decision.

fucking money. i hate it. i hate the fixation on it. i hate that lives end because of it. i hate that wars start because of it. i hate that families end because of it or people go into depression because of it.

so i said fuck you to money and booked a 800 dollar flight to athens with 2o00 dollars in the bank.

because really money can be re-earned, but the memory of going to greece alone at age 25 for four days, with no guide, no companion, nothing...this is priceless.

i used my credit card for the first time in 2 years.

wanna know the last time i used it?


to go to kenya...


i see a trend here.

itinerary:
sept. 18th leave for athens
sept 19th arrive in munich, stay for 2 hours
sept 19th arrive in athens at 11pm (so scary, but itll be fun)
sept 19th - take a taxi to the Apollo hotel in Athens and stay the night
sept 20th - take the metro to the Piraeus port and take a 2 hour ferry to Agistri (greek island)
sept 20th - hang out in Agistri, stay at Hotel Diyonosous
sept 21st - take 10 min. speed boat to Aegina (another greek island)
sept 21st - hang out, stay at Hotel Rachel (maybe)
sept 22nd - leave Aegina on ferry and go back to athens
sept 22nd- hang out in athens (i really need to brush up on my history because i dont know crap about parthenon, acrapolis, etc), stay at Hotel Apollo
sept 23rd - leave Athens, return to LAX

pretty good right? for not knowing anything about Greece and working with $1200...=)


love being single, love being 25, love being free to do my own thing, love credit cards

thanks God for not saying no...=) because i really did ask...seriously.